Here is something from CSD in Munich. My first gay pride event and one of the best moments in my life! I hope to catch something like this next year too !!! :D:D:D

The trip to Sachsen-Anhalt

Ok sooo I'm back! Yeah few days ago actually but was kinda busy. While there I kept a ''diary'' or something so basically I just wanted to post that.


And finally my trip to Magdeburg had begun. As always I have to start getting ready late (kinda my style I guess, cuz who wouldn’t wait for this :P) but this time it was totally not my fault. The asshole of neighbour I have wanted to fix my PC the other day. Not that anything was wrong with it but I needed a new Windows cuz this one was without a licence. So I said sure, why not. Woah was that a big mistake. He did install the windows properly but forgot to save the drivers for my laptop. Grrrrr... he found the audio drivers but nothing else, so basically my laptop runs as a big ass mp3 player now. At least I can get online. Can't wait to get it REALLY fixed when I get back home.

But the asshole was kinda cute :P. Ok.. horniness be gone!! :P I really need to jack off or something cuz I'm getting blue balls on a regular basis. Luckily I have an old lady sitting next to me on the train.

Ohh.. and the lady is soooo nice. She immediately started talking to me when I sat down. Actually she kinda called me over to sit next to her. Suspicious, isn't it.

Back to the story now...
German trains are so uncomfortable. The usual trains we know here are 1st class. (blah) So I feel more like I'm sitting on a bus instead of a train. (btw, the song I'm listening at the moment is Sealed with a Kiss by Bobby Vinton. Can I get more depressing?? But I do miss my baby very much.) Ohh.. yeah the trains. So the reason I hate it it's cuz I'm in 2nd class :(((( (cry!) But ok, my constant need to bitch about stuff is a well known fact by now, so nothing new there. Bitchiness I give u two thumbs up :P.

So at the moment I'm on the station in Nurnberg (or whatever) and waiting for the train to start moving again. And started. Yay! I really don't want to travel more than I need to. I'll be there in 22:30 and I left 14:20... so do the math :((((((((((( My ass is too pretty for these sits! :P

Ok but I do have to say that Germany has some awesome sights. Like, this much green I haven't seen in ages. Kinda giving me a headache so I'll just turn to the holy\healthy screen in front of me. Love u baby!!! (and no Danen, I'm talking about my PC :P)

Uuuu Holy Valance is on :) That should give me some energy. Just hoping that I won't start shaking my Groove-thang... cuz do trust me when I say that my gayness is off the charts, when it comes to music at least :P. That reminded me. Next up, the soundtrack of Mamma Mia.

Ohh man I didn't pack anything to eat and the grandma next to me just pulled out a sandwich. lol I'm so gonna starve till I get to Oschersleben :P
Ok, cute girl sitting in front me. I'm loving her hair! Like it's settle yet wild at the same time and I'm not even a fan of blond. I'm soooo gonna ask her what conditioner she uses.
And speaking of that. I have to say one thing. I seriously can't tell Germans apart. I mean, how it's possible for so many people to look alike. Crazy I tell you. Crazy!! Plus they are kinda ugly-ish :P. So thank God for all the foreigners roaming around Munich this summer. I'm drooling the same way as in my fat days whenever I saw pizza (mmm... pizza).
Ok so enough with the hotties... I seriously don't want to get a boner sitting next to an old lady. I have an image to look after :P

25 July 2009
15:55


Well I'm already in Peseckendorf and it kinda sucks. First of all it's like a REALLY small place with about 150 people living in it. That means NO stores, which means NO cigarettes. That was kinda bad but I've gotten used to it. Today we went to a festival that's happening every year in the near of the place I'm in called Klein Wandsleben which is cool... with all the typical German houses and stuff. Basically I liked it. And the reason we went is Zuckerfest. I drank way too much but I don't regret it, although there is a girl that won't let me be.... yes a girl blah. And I've probably broken up with Danen cuz he's put me on ignore which I hate but if that bastard thinks I'm gonna cry over him well that just his mistake.

Somewhere between 1and 2 August


I'm back! Now just sitting in the camp bar and thinking about some stuff. It's getting to be a bit too crowded in here. Way too crowded! But what do I expect... with around 100 people around me 24/7 it's everything but privacy. I miss home I guess. Plus it's becoming a drag to hold a smile for everyone. I met one nice guy here but unfortunately str8 but blah... that's life. I think we could be good friends. Also I'm hanging around with the 2 girls from Macedonia, the 2 of Serbia, few girls from Germany and... yikes! Too many for them all to be named. Socializing is something u do on a regular basis here. I just hope I won't snap here.



Hi ya all! At the moment we are getting ready for the STUPID ASS performance. Our play is particularly a suck fest. We just stand around with pictures made out of paper... a 6 year old retard could do a better job then the one we did. Ohh well after this glass of wine I'm gonna rock the stage anyway :P Hollywood here I come!
I'm still waiting for an answer from Danen and if I don't get it soon I'm sooo ending it all. I have a line of guys waiting for me back home... speaking of that when I get back to Munich too. His loss in any case.
I stared missing everyone back home. Here the people are good and everything but the organization kinda blows. At least I got a few new friends which is always a plus.
Well wish me luck with my play and till next time. :))))

11 August 2009
23:21


Today he finally wrote!! Well actually yesterday but I was asleep so it doesn’t count. I realized how much I actually miss him. I miss everyone so much. But I'll be in a steady contact with all of them once I get back to Munich. So yay for that!
So now I'm getting ready for the bonfire and since I've never been to one it should be lots of fun. We bought whiskey for the occasion so hopefully I'll have pictures as proof that I didn't do/say anything stupid (which I seriously doubt). Well Kristina is still not here (she was supposed to come by my room so we can go together but I guess she forgot about me) so I'll probably leave now. Plus I don't want to bother my roommate with his friends cuz they are writing a speech for tomorrow I guess.
Ohh yeah, I'm here for two more days and from one side I wanna leave soooo bad but from the other, I've met so many great people and the departure from them is gonna kill me.

13 August 2009
21:48


Today is a bad day. The camp finished and I'm in the train to Munich. I'm going to miss all the people I've met there sooo much. I hope I see at least some of them again. We made some plans to celebrate New Years together somewhere in the middle of Europe which I guess would be Poland or something. That would be awesome! Plus the people from Romania said they are coming this winter to Macedonia. The Italians too. So YAY to that!! U and now I'm actually sitting in the train on the ground, lol. I like the new experience.

15 August 2009
11:46


Blah!! The ride is so boring. I just wanna get back home to check my fb. Maybe by some miracle he actually wrote back. I don't know what to think anymore. Sometimes I'm just tired of everything.

Germany ROCKS!!!

Woah it's been long since I've written something down buuut have a good excuse :P. I came to Germany like 15 days ago and have been to lazy just to sit and actually think. But some very interesting things happened which I have to share (not that anyone actually reads my blog but ehhh...)

Soooo... this is my update

First of all as I have already written, I come from a very small country in Europe that most people don't even know exists. That's why I love my visits to Germany or any other country in Western Europe. And for a first time I was able to be what I truly am (not that at home I hide it or anything :P) but I meant it more like I can do the stuff I want now... first time out of there and being of legal age. Yep, so I'm using it to the max. Oh, oh, oh! And for a first time in my life I was at a gay pride event!! So that's kinda a big WOOHOO for me (danced to Cher songs like crazy and wasn't even caring if someone was looking at me strangely, not that anyone cared cuz they were doing the exact same thing :P).

So yes, I love it here. I've met couple of people that are very nice so they've made my stay bearable. To be honest, the first few days I was about to commit suicide because the highlight of my days was listening to OOOOOOOLLLLLDDDDD stories about my family and a constant old lady bitchin'. Luckily that changed.
Some people outside of Europe might imagine it like a place of nonstop parties and yeah.. all the crazy European sex you could want and they are definitely not wrong but me being in a relationship I try to keep it down just to the parties. But sometimes it's getting really hard. I'm in this long distance relationship where I don't even get to hear my man as much as I would like (which would be like every other minute :P) but he is going through some things and I'm here so I understand and it's not like I have a choice. Love him to death though.

Ok so back to the happiness now :P. The pride was awesome !! That much beer and men in tight leather I have NEVER seen in my life.. literally I had a boner that wouldn't go away for the entire night :P. I went there alone during the day and stayed till 2am or something. I really don't have problems getting to know other people cuz people may describe me as overly friendly sometimes but the situation requested it so I went in to do a ''friends'' hunt. First I met a very nice girl and we started joking and laughing and we had fun. Then something weird happened. A guy and a girl came up to her (cuz the girl liked her or something) and I know what breed we homos are so she ditched me in a second and the two of them got lost in the crowd. That left me alone with the guy who was nice enough to invite me to join him and his friends for the rest of the night. I was like... duh! So he introduced me to everyone and they were soooooo nice. We acted like we had been friends for are whole lives. They got every Drag Queen we passed to take a picture with me... it was crazy cuz you won't see that where I come from. 2 hours passed and that's all I remember, waaaay too much alcohol. But at least of what I do remember and from the pics I have in my camera... I had a blast!! :P

So after all of that life came back to being normal again... blah! Granmama had some ''interesting'' stories in her sleeves again :( (my thoughts at the time.. where's the rope). But few days passed again I met another guy. He is French living in Germany now and we went out had a few beers in the park and it was very nice (strictly on friendly basis). He invited me if I wanted to go to a party the next day with a friend of his so I of course I said yes. We went out to the Beer Garden had a beer (served in a glass that's 1 liter :P). After that we went out to a metal club where we had few drinks, and then to a gay bar where we also had few drinks. I was wasted! Spent 35 euros in one night... CRAZY!! Plus I had a biiiig fight with the guy cuz he got drunk too and went missing somewhere (gee I wonder where :P) But I found him, I said some things, he said some things... the whole argument seemed like a cock fight. So I left, got lost and walked around the city for 4 freakin' hours in the rain! Not fun, not fun at all!! 2 days after (probably after we got sober) he called me and apologized, I did too and I guess we are in good terms again. He took me hiking 2 days ago in the pre Alps Mountains and we had fun so I guess everything did turned out fine.

So now I'm getting ready to go in another city (old people free, thank God!) in a camp where I should represent my country. It's going to be hilarious. Why, you might ask... well I have a double citizenship and I'm going to represent the country I basically know nothing about. So I'm going to be winging it most of the time :P. Can't wait for the post I'm going to write it from there.

So now I'm sitting here and wondering what adventures and alcohol awaits me for the rest of the summer. But whatever it is I'm sure it's gonna be crazy.

P.s. I didn't write all the things that happened cuz the bat is going to be back any minute now, so about the other stuff in some later posts.




I have to post this picture of the pride bear cuz it's soooo cute and totally me :P

Children and gay issues...?

Few days ago, on my best friend’s birthday party, 4 of us started watching some clips on youtube about the whole prop 8 issue and had a discussion which kinda turned into a stupid fight about gay education. The fight started when I mentioned my rage about (and I don’t really remember that much about it and can’t really talk from first hand experience of what was happening in the US cuz we are kinda far from it all) a situation when a professor, I think, was punished somehow for telling some school kids a story about “How a Prince married a Prince” or something like that. And for my big surprise they were all okay with it… I mean WTF!?! Their argument was that children need to learn about “normal” society first, before they make their “choice” whether to be straight or gay. So in our struggling society where we try to make a difference by pointing out that being gay is perfectly normal (and I might add that they’re pro-gay) we still have the need to classify people as normal and not normal by teaching kids when they’re 8 (or what ever) that a marriage is only acceptable between a man and a woman. Okay… my question now… why is it so wrong to let children know that marriage between two people of the same gender is nothing bad? And the response… “How would you explain the situation to a 5 year old that has 2 mommies or 2 daddies when they ask how babies are made?” Ammmm… that’s just STUPID! How would you explain to a 5 year old? Well I sure am not going to tell em’ that mommy got fucked by daddy and 9 months later… PRESTO THERE YOU WERE! Just tell them the stork brought you over like every normal ‘non-homosexual’ family. Geez! So, that fight kinda got off on the wrong foot and we just changed the subject.

Plus it’s not like children aren’t already in contact with “the gayness” from every possible aspect. From music (where I guess it’s okay for kids to pretend to be Britney Spears and dance around in underwear singing how they would love to suck some cock, cuz apparently that’s totally cool), movies, TV shows and even cartoons. Yeah… for my big surprise there are some weird stuff going on in cartoons. Especially Japanese cartoons. When u put aside the whole violence and gore killing moments, you kinda notice that they have totally undecided genders. The girls look like emo boys and the boys look like pretty girls or lesbians (and don’t want to offend anyone by this, sorry :P). Hmmm… I guess I should be moving to Japan instead :P.

Ok... I totally lost where I was going with all of this so if someone is reading this... tough luck :P

Oh, oh, oh.. yeah, back on track. I’m glad that they brought the whole issue to the schools and in the everyday life cuz it’s really nothing to be embarrassed about. If someone told me in first grade that was fine for a “prince to marry a prince” I would have come out much sooner and not wait 20 years to see if the coast was clear. So why not making it easier for the future generations? And even the straight children would grow up knowing that the whole gay/lesbian marriage is perfectly normal. So we can all see how that would make it much better for the whole society not just major groups. But we still have a long way to go till we get there… it’s not like we’re going anywhere… in 20 years we are going to look back on this and will have a good laugh when we think that actually there was a problem.


Aaaaaaaand… I have to post this video cuz I was a huge anime fan when I was little and loved a particular show called “Sailor Moon”. Like every little gay boy I was enchanted by the women empowering and the magical powers as well as the whole transformation sequence (girls prancing around naked and getting uniforms to fight evil and stuff). Buuuuuut… only a year ago I actually remembered something (not as much remembered as my sister joked about my passed obsession with the cartoon) that now came as a huge surprise and a good laugh about it cuz I didn’t realized it then. There were 3 male characters that actually turned into women… LOL! Yeah… I thought too that the world has gone a little bazoonka but this is waaaaaay out of that league. :P
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LOL !

I'm a parody whore so this kinda got my day started... :P

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Wow in a good mood (again).. what's the deal :P

Soooo... I guess posting the pride month challenge really got me in a good mood and am finally able to write something down (and have the time finally, WOOHOO !!)

The stoooopid exams are almost finished, tomorrow I'm seeing all of my friends together cuz one of my best friends has a b-day and... and a BIG AND... I'm in love !!! :D Finally
Most people wouldn't call it a conventional relationship cuz we are kinda far from each other but I really would do anything for the guy. And equally as important, he's willing to do the same for me :D
It is weird cuz we've known each other for a while now but never really talked until that one faithful day (when I wrote just to catch up on things)we simply clicked. So some time passed and I was hooked... I mean I hooked?? A bit strange yes but apparently totally possible :P.
And about the distance... I'm sooo not worried. In my family we kinda tend to fall for complicated and for someone that has nothing to do with the country we live in (I don't think u want to see my family tree, mixed nations from all over the world).
I'm definitely the luckiest guy in the world !!!

So this one goes to the love of my life and I hope to see you soon cuz me iz missing you already so much. LOVE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Happy pride month to all !

Even though I am not an American I have to post this...



Again, HAPPY PRIDE MONTH TO EVERYONE and I hope things go faster with the acceptance over there so it can get here too (soon please !:P)

Random thoughts before the morning coffee

For some people living alone would be a dream come true and the immediate emergency for being left alone would be considered a blessing in disguise… Why!?! What’s so good about being alone most the time anyway??

Jeez… I can’t take a break. I know that I’m only using this blog as way to blow off steam but seriously!?! It has been one fall after another and I’m not sure how much more I can take. Because of some stupid unwritten law, saying that everything mustn’t go smoothly, I am spending most of the time wondering “what did I do wrong this time”. My mom is apparently ill and needs money for hospital so she took on a stupid 24 hours job (literally) and is not telling me why, my sister is being a raging bitch and thinks that if she’s moved out she doesn’t have the need to even call to check up on anybody, plus is not telling me what’s wrong with my mom. And where is that leaving me? Sitting alone at home 24/7 taking care of the household with Cerberus- the watchdog from hell whose amusement comes from going through the garbage and leaving it all around the place which is (and I’m only guessing) awfully fun…
I’m one of those people that need to have their own space… but not 4 freakin’ rooms. I need the company and I need to be even around abnocsious people… just to be around someone. I started talking with the animals, not a pretty sight cause it can turn into a whole conversation (and not crazy over here :P).
My friends try to be a support and I’m lucky to have every single one of them, but it’s not enough. It has been long since I felt the proper family love and when things started so get better, when we all started communicating and acting like a real family… something like this happens and leaves us where we were 3 years ago, total strangers to each other. I can deal with the fact that I live alone, I can deal with the fact that my sis has moved out but I don’t want to deal with the fact that I was left with one parent by the time I was 15 and maybe 2 parents less by the time I’m 20. I guess that’s my biggest fear. I sure hope that someone will feel the need to inform me what’s going on because I’m feeling emptiness like never before.

Just another day for me

Well I’m just sitting here and thinking if I’ll ever find someone compatible for me. Probably the answer is ‘no’ because again I broke up with another one. It’s not that he was that bad as I can’t let anyone in, at least in the tempo they’re expecting me to, jeez we were going out for three weeks or something. And I do have a certain distance when it comes to boyfriends. My usual saying to this is that they’re the fucked up ones and I’m still young and have time… hmm, I live in a fairytale or what. But ok… I guess I could make some effort, which is reserved for those who deserve it. This one actually had the nerves to tell me that I was acting all high and mighty and needed someone to bring me back to earth. Hah! Like even if that’s so I seriously doubt that that’s going to be him. And I shouldn’t even mention the fact that he was interesting as a box of hair and had the sense of humor of a pile of rocks and if I hear him talking for more than an hour I’m going to shove a rusted nail up my eye. Lovable, ain’t I? :P

So yeah… kinda losing hope over here, I’m even thinking of begging for forgiveness from my ex (such a proud moment that is going to be). Ahhhh…. Not what I would usually call life right on track.

I feel just like Cinderella.
I hope that lucky bitch died from a tampon turning into a pumpkin or at least diarrhea or something.

Love from bitchy little ol’ me

Old ghosts

Today wasn’t really the best day ever. I have successfully avoided one particular hospital for about five freakin’ years because my dad died from cancer there. Well I guess one can’t really run from that nightmare forever.
My mom has a friend that just went “under the knife” and was hospitalized there and her daughter and I are friends since early childhood so I wanted to be there for her. Because they live in another city and the main hospital is in the capital, of course, she stayed with us. Yesterday was bearable because I was waiting for her in parking lot when the visiting hours were over and we went to my place where I made a quick lunch. After that I went to the gym and got back with 2 friends and they prepared a pretty tasty dinner. Back to story… today I actually got in… and I really, and I do mean really, hate that hospital. To make my experience even worse, I was supposed to go to the 3rd floor and I kinda ended up on the second (the elevator was out of use and suddenly I forgot what numbers were). I got in the wing (on the 2nd floor) and I felt a strange chill going down my spine, it was very creepy, but I couldn’t put my finger on it… I mean yeah a hospital, something I hate but still it felt weird. I looked around and saw the reason why… the room where I saw my dad dead. I will never forget that day. It still haunts me at night. I couldn’t stop shivering. Suddenly everything just came back as a flash and I just ran out of there. I went up the floor but it was too late. The thing I feared the most came to bite me on the ass. So basically I went home as crap. I just couldn’t stand being with someone, and yet, couldn’t stand being alone. I was glad that and hour from the return home I had to go to the gym with the 2 friends I mentioned earlier. Everything was just fine. We joked around like everyday and nothing was different but I was strange. I almost never get really angry… have high threshold for tolerating jokes but today I just wanted the company. I wanted for someone to take my mind off everything that was happening earlier today but I couldn’t stand being the butt of the joke… not today. At one point I just stopped talking and put everyone on ignore, which was pretty rude because after the workout we went for pizza and my boyfriend came along. Plus it wasn’t like anyone knew what was happening to me.
Hopefully no one will take today against me and I do need to work on my social skills a little bit more from now on.

Ohhh... happy days :)

... I guess life's good to me these few days :P. I don't know why but I do feel happy now. Don't have stuff to complain or bitch about (well if I want I can dig some out :P) and basically the sun is out and shining. And finally getting my life back on track with showing up for school, on a diet, working out, new boyfriend... actually 2 in a period of 10 days :P

Well, I guess I can try to write something deep which is going to include more than my new look or the sex life... which is great btw :P

What was happening in my life? I'm done with the exams which is great and finally can take a breath, volunteering in an organization for people with special needs and I'm having the best time there. I don't know... even if I have the worst day ever, just spending time with them liberates me. Doesn't matter what they're doing, they are always with a huge smile. It must be nice to see the world from a simple point of view (and I don't mean this offensively), with no fear for the future. As far as I know they see it like that... actually I hope.
Aaaaa the 2 boyfriends? Yeah... :P There was a gay film festival 2 weeks ago or so... in which the movies sucked but we are obligated to watch them. And the last day of the festival they made a party in a club that I didn't even know existed. Well I was blind drunk and went to the party and had a blast. Danced like crazy, laughing with my friends... something that happens rarely, good parties are almost a myth here. So, at the end of the night I saw a cute guy sitting on the other side of the table. I'm horrible at flirting so I didn't even try. But I guess the guy liked me too and he asked my friends about me... long story short, we had a date the next day and it was wonderful. He took me to a restaurant which is kinda weird for me... coffee would do just fine. But he was older and I guess it was normal for him. After that we took a walk by the river and he was so charming. I scheduled with friends to watch a movie after the date so I invited him to my place (strictly to watch a movie) and after the movie when everyone left I kinda gave in. Never had sex on a first date before and I felt cheap. Don't know why but it was the first time I acted like that... usually I'm more self conscious. But it was the best sex I've ever had :P. But that was it... great sex. I wanted something deeper, to have someone I can lean on when I feel like crap, to be the person for leaning on when the other person feels like crap. That was missing. We couldn't make a single conversation so we would just jump right in the sack. I had to end it. While I was dating the nympho I started talking to another guy who seemed sweet and I don't know... probably desperate for the same thing I was longing for. After some time I realized that I have a lot in common with him. So after I broke up I took my chances with this one. And till now I don't have a single regret about my decision. I really hope that this is going to last cause he really is just a sweetheart.
Well I guess those are the recent updates in my life and can't wait to see if this mood is here to stay... at least for a while. :)

Rambling as always :P

I guess I haven't been paying much attention to the blog lately but booooy have I been busy. Today I kinda have an exam but can't really concentrate so hopefully getting out some stuff will come as a relief.
I don't know... it seems that life isn't really going as I planned it would. I'm one of those people that have a clear picture of what should happen in advance... not always possible but it worked most of my life. So basically, I've been feeling crappy these few weeks. Maybe it's the weather, maybe the fact that I really do feel lonely sometimes... I just don't know and don't have the strength to deal with that right now. I messed up my 3rd semester by not showing up for classes, not doing the homework, not doing anything actually just cause I felt depressed, lol. How stupid can one get... I mean there are people with far worse problems than mine... but it's nice to feel sorry for yourself for once in your life. I always had to be the strongest, the most together one.... hehe... and the truth is that I was an empty shell for a while. Soon after my dad died about 5 years ago I think (I stopped counting to be honest) everything in my life just fell apart, but never showed it to anyone... people even thought I was made out of stone... which was kinda true. But wasn't about to show it to anyone. Then some shit happened in my "love" life... but what did I expect, with 15 you don't really know what you're doing. And then just gave up. I committed myself entirely to my friends. Didn't have anyone else. So that's the reason I feel so connected to them... the three of them were the only ray of sunshine in my life then. But as everything in life, that period passed eventually, time doesn't make you forget... it only teaches you to deal with everything somehow. Then high school finished and was time to decide what to do with the future. The "big" question was, should I start working or should I continue to college... and again not much choice here either. To make it short... my mom chose what high school for me was the right one and college wasn't going to be any different. I wanted to study biology, and I was pretty good at it, plus I loved it more than anything in the world. But I guess it wasn't good enough for me so it really came to languages or nothing. It's not that I don't appreciate the concern but I always made good decisions about my professional life. Looking back to it... maybe mom made all those for me, wow... independence... what's that like? :P Soooo, after that I've decided that it was time to come out. I mean, I've been gay my whole life but never thought it would last (kinda hoped it wouldn't) but I guess 20 years do have a way of changing your mind. I think that was the high point of my life then. I felt liberated like never before. Seemed more happier, lost weight, changed my style and actually became what it usually known as handsome, lol. Well not really, but still... I look much better than before, people actually started noticing me. I had one relationship that was awesome and of course my self-destructing nature had to end it when it started getting serious :P and since then I've been looking for at least someone normal... semi-normal... ohhh what ever... everyone's got a chance with me now :P as long as it's not a casual one night stand. But it's not all bad as I look back now... I've met awesome new people that I really enjoy hanging out with. Which is strange cause the old me would never let anyone in that fast... but I guess I like the new me. And I like that I allow people to come close to me now...
Ohh well I guess this really helped :D Well if anyone's reading this (which I sincerely hope is no one :P) I want to make a statement that I'm not the basketcase I seem to be in here :P Hmmm... I guess I should be going since I do have an exam tomorrow which is in about 8 hours :P sooo, till next time :)