Well, I guess I can try to write something deep which is going to include more than my new look or the sex life... which is great btw :P
What was happening in my life? I'm done with the exams which is great and finally can take a breath, volunteering in an organization for people with special needs and I'm having the best time there. I don't know... even if I have the worst day ever, just spending time with them liberates me. Doesn't matter what they're doing, they are always with a huge smile. It must be nice to see the world from a simple point of view (and I don't mean this offensively), with no fear for the future. As far as I know they see it like that... actually I hope.
Aaaaa the 2 boyfriends? Yeah... :P There was a gay film festival 2 weeks ago or so... in which the movies sucked but we are obligated to watch them. And the last day of the festival they made a party in a club that I didn't even know existed. Well I was blind drunk and went to the party and had a blast. Danced like crazy, laughing with my friends... something that happens rarely, good parties are almost a myth here. So, at the end of the night I saw a cute guy sitting on the other side of the table. I'm horrible at flirting so I didn't even try. But I guess the guy liked me too and he asked my friends about me... long story short, we had a date the next day and it was wonderful. He took me to a restaurant which is kinda weird for me... coffee would do just fine. But he was older and I guess it was normal for him. After that we took a walk by the river and he was so charming. I scheduled with friends to watch a movie after the date so I invited him to my place (strictly to watch a movie) and after the movie when everyone left I kinda gave in. Never had sex on a first date before and I felt cheap. Don't know why but it was the first time I acted like that... usually I'm more self conscious. But it was the best sex I've ever had :P. But that was it... great sex. I wanted something deeper, to have someone I can lean on when I feel like crap, to be the person for leaning on when the other person feels like crap. That was missing. We couldn't make a single conversation so we would just jump right in the sack. I had to end it. While I was dating the nympho I started talking to another guy who seemed sweet and I don't know... probably desperate for the same thing I was longing for. After some time I realized that I have a lot in common with him. So after I broke up I took my chances with this one. And till now I don't have a single regret about my decision. I really hope that this is going to last cause he really is just a sweetheart.
Well I guess those are the recent updates in my life and can't wait to see if this mood is here to stay... at least for a while. :)
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